"So, I decided to work on creating a blog that will help you get a general sense of who I am and what I want in this lifetime. It will outline pretty much anything and everything that may arise in daily conversation. Ya know, men, marriage, music, children, the birds & the bees *wink wink*, Harry Potter- NOT! Nosey ass neighbors, and Oh yeah let me not forget- HATERSSSS! What was I thinking *smacks forhead* we can't forget about them! Gotta show them love too! Also, as a side note, my blog is not meant to offend anyone. I find it very therapeutic and rewarding. I am simply stating and sharing MY views. If you don't like it, then simply fall off from the face of the earth. Or just leave a comment! LOL smiley face! Stay tuned, story of my life!"
It is quite difficult to connect with someone when fear plays an optimal role. What is fear? Is it intimidation? Holding back oneself? Unfamilar terrain? Not knowing? The more and more comfortable I become with myself, I will find the answer I am searching for. Deeply rooted. A sensation of potential likeness on both ends with unlimited boundaries is explorable. However, it depends on how adventurous I feel.
Oh the mind of an aqaurius, is the mind of an alienated world...each star dimly lit amongst the distractions . Yet, I know there is a path that awaits me. Decisions. Can the stars shine any brighter? Reveal yourself intently. Light my way and guide me to where I am destined to be.
Interconnected is what I would like to feel. Joining is what I want to become but until then I will strive on being fearless.
I had one not too long ago....an epiphany... and it feels so right...
And I like this beat...song is TIGHT
I could go in detail of how I truly feel about this song but I'm not willing to share "Mylifetime" shaningans at this moment. Enjoy the sounds!
Monday, September 26, 2011
Power in numbers is the ultimate betrayl for accepted primitive behavior. Man was born with flaw then man created law thus law has it flaws...So why put your trust in a flawed system? Something to think about... Cass E.
Emmanuel Marcelin Photography www.mannymarcelin.com Model: Myself Location: Boston Public Garden
Knowing yourself is inevitable. Be wise and do not attempt to imitate what is projected before you. Carbon copies can easily be discarded. Leaving no trace of the original. Unique you are; not to be masked behind an illusion. Let your self go and be free. Be honest as it will build character.
Be honest as it will build you. Know what you want. Know what you need and lastly know what makes you happy...
Cyber Bullying is a form of intimidation that is expressed virtually via texting, emailing or using any other form of technological device with the deliberate intent to hurt or embarass someone.
I have always been bullied since I can remember by the people closest to me and it was never a pleaseant feeling. Being torn apart, always wanting to hide and be away from everyone. Or simpy putting myself in an uncomfortable situation to be "accepted" by the masses....but that backfired.
"If you have no feet to stand on than you have no foundation to ground you. You lose your momentum. You lose you."Cass E.
Statistic show:Distribution of cyberbullying venues used by young people in the US, according to theCenters for Disease Control
Here is an example of a form of bullying I am personally faced with today.I no longer speak to this person and I have repeatedly asked the culprit to leave me alone. However, the culprit still manages to cyberstalk me via facebook by sending me an email expressing how she does not like my picture. Furthermore, the culprit is not even displayed in this picture. This is so sad, I'm embarrased to be going through this. To protect the culprits identity I will blur out her name. " Here is your 2 minutes of anonymous fame"
I'll let the email and picture speak for itself. No further explanation is required here.
Well maybe Just a little...
Okay....... Jill Scott explains it just a tad bit better than I do.
Attempts of softintimidation just touched the surface of my skin but no lesions have been made. Hate is a reflection of that individual. However, my situation is not as bad in comparison to others afflicted with cyber bullying.
Think of the countless and senseless acts that are so apparent in this society. Take for example the case of Phoebe Prince, 15 of North Hamptom, MA.
Her classmates cyber bullied Phoebe to death. Everyone stood by and watched. Being an observer makes you 10 X worse than the bully. Be an active bystander and do something positive!
Bermuda, an island so far yet so close I can taste the salt from the North Atlantic Ocean. Imagining how effervescently blue and clear the water appears. Dancing under the sun all while the sea shells play an eccentric tune...I am drifting into a sweet neverland. Awake- its my reality. Loving every moment and anticipating the excitment. The drifting rocks and the timeless sand captivates me. Appreciating and enjoying the pleasant gifts which earth has to offer. I am ready to absorb your atmosphere. Protect me from the indiscretions of this world and mold my mind into a peaceful abode.
Someone throw me a jackhammer because I'm about to blow a hole in this joint! Beware of angry black woman. Don't get me wrong if you play your cards right you won't get to see that side.
(*I can only speak for myself and from what I observe. This is not a generalization of a specific group of people. Thank you. Now on with it!*)
Deception runs deep....especially if you are swallowed by it. Careful young minded one before your love is throttled with. You will not begin to imagine how many snakes are lying on the ground with their deceitful slither across the playing field. Their tongues out tasting the air that you breathe, sliding up and down your legs with a shameless passion, to only fool you with their whimsical speech.
The hole I built is to throw all those f***'n snakes in it. The past gone- down, down, down, down you go and don't come back. O' AND let me not forget to throw a lighter and some patron in there to finish off the job. Oops. I heard ethanol is very flammable.
Peeling scales were overlooked and the shedding of his demise began to unravel right before your eyes. Brown eyes, blinded, due to the side effect of love. Is it love? Or is it the fear of not being loved in return...
Think twice and never second guess...once you do it's a wrap.
*This is an expression. Not to be taken literally.*
Signed Cass E.
I had originally written this 06/20/2010. It feels so good to let raw emotion out. Oh yeah!
Photo credits: aliphotography
www.aliiphotography.blogspot.com
Model: Myself
Location: Castle Island
"Thinking of how far I can venture. Reaching into the dephts of myself- Submerge" Cass E.
A French rendition of "Desert" sang by a very talented French artist, Emilie Simon. Listen closely, poetic verses illusrating how she is broken from this relationship. It pains her, she is in love but appears she cannot leave...
Knowing is half the battle- action and response is the hardest part.
Alright, so this post is simply about paying an ounce of respect to people that don't deserve ____ from you. I like to label them as "constant downers." Ranging from the ones that complain about life religiously. The hardshells that put up a so called wall of "greatness" but covertly HATES you.
They usually tend to look like this... on the INSIDE:
Andthis...
And Lastly But certainly not Least- THIS...
Uh Oh I feel a rant making way. Here we go: "I mean who wants to be around Mr. & Mrs. Humpty Dumpty all the Damn time! You fell off the wall but do you have to knock me right over too! Yeesh! *Sitting hear peacefully enjoying the shade, no time to ruin my parade* And aaaanother thing!!! Mr. Grouch- Yeah you? The one on Sesame street. Puhleeeez! Not everyone wants to live in a garbage can and eat trash daily. Your misery is simply Not my misery. However, I believe I have a Universal sense of responsibilty to help my fellow man. (That is where my niceness comes in) But once you try to trip me, put me down and drag me into that trash can with you, I will swiftly walk on by. Next time, I'll carry my lavender febreeze to keep me guarded at all times. The smell of Hate is extremely intoxicating." I'm done ranting now!
Side note: these "constant downers" are sadly our so called friends, strangers on the boardwalk, acquaintances, professors, the black cat across the street and WORST of all F-a-m-i-l-y.
Okay on a more semi light hearted serious note, here's my take.
I've learned (which most of you should already know) that you cannot please everyone. Learn to say And say it with me "NO." The happier you are, the more people will tend to hate you for it. The reason behind it, is that these people suffer from a chronic illness I call Hateonit Syndrome.
Symptomsthat may occur are: jealousy, envious dysplasia, deep rooted emotional self affliction, low self-esteem, pessimism, fits of rage and running diarrhea of the mouth; Accumatively, this is straight up NEGATIVITY. Not sure of any cure yet. Nevertheless, I am working diligently and steadily in the lab mixing the cones, ols and anes together to come up with a remedial concoction. This could some take some major time. The FDA and DEA processes may put a slumber on these medications before intake of human consumption. So I guess, off the market or OTC (over the counters) ranging from heightened confidence, purpose, happiness maybe the only means of rectifying this growing epidemic currently.
I'll be that friend that will sing tunes of well deserved compliments and genuinely support your endeavors. However! I repeat. HOWEVER, DO NOT take MY kindness for YOUR weakness! I am viewed as the "silent type" because I am not outwardly in your face confrontational. I only speak if I am compassionatly compelled to or care enough *rolls eyes* I have too much on my mind to be remotely entertained with minute distractions. I like to #keepitclassyalways# That is my stance.
Unless....you would like to tune in & enjoy these tunes of "Hi Hater"--->
OH Wait! Ooops wrong tune, let me change the station: (*sigh* this is more fitting)
I am, an observer and deal with the cards that I am dealt, without having to compromise who I am. I just DO NOT have the ENERGY to be angry, hold grudges and be condescending to others. Too much of that energy is wasting away into pilars of stress. I can honestly say *smiles from ear to ear* I definitely have the energy to BE HAPPY! I want more out of life than worrying about what he or she does. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- On another rant:DO NOTexpect me to make enemies for you. You may have a problem with "Mary Beth" BUT that doens't mean I have to be on bad terms with her too. And DO NOT insist that I take sides between two mutual confidants. I hate playing monkey in the middle. I'm neutrally conserved. *And don't harvest bad feelings, talk ish and tell me about it.* You can vent, which is perfectly healthy yet, venting on the same topic daily seems a bit much to me. GET OVER IT! And let's talk about something else. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- In the past, I've often deamped myself to a lesser accord to jump start others feelings. But I believe if I harness greatness, why hide it? Why be a lesser you? A friend, a significant other should always compliment you and also be on the same page as you....If not, please do me a favor and don't take in basket cases. I learned the hard way.
We all go through whirlwinds of issues; no one is ever perfect. Those “constant downers” needs to understand, we are all on the same boat of life's gambles. BUT you can also be thrown overboard if your ass get out of line!
Listen & indulge yourself with me into this aromatic abyss...
Resonance: Evolving from one form to a more stable form...but you are still UNIQUELY- YOU
Emotionsrun deep at the well of your heart. A highly influential vessel that can easily be damaged; so choose selectively and wisely of the one you allow into your four chambers. Your atrial connection to your developing being is at stake for an impressionable downfall of aplasia. A resuscitation of life is required but will it ever be the same? He feeds your soul with a frenzy disturbing the bloodflow; which carries the oxygen to your outer limits. A sense of self is lost when overwhelmed in the supreme court of....of love.
Too Bad because love is Blind, Too bad it doesn't matter
Have you loved carelessly before? Got caught up and intertwined in its complex and sticky web? Be steady, be patient, be ready to evolve; detangle yourself from what’s holding you back. Substance and quality is ahead, waiting for your prompt arrival. Guard your vessel carefully. However, do not let calluses form as a mechanism of defense...it would be quite difficult to differentiate between the good and the bad.
"Love is too strong a word to say it too early, but it has too beautiful a meaning to say it too late" unknown
My mind is a constant dilemma which I face perceptually. Juggling between a lush field of life experiences to create a sensational masterpiece of imperfection. This imperfection is the greatest trait known to me- I am......HUMAN. My colorful array of thoughts progressively pushes me to my most inner core of BEING. My outlook on life is positively rewarding because my senses crave a euphoria of outlandish desires. A certain mystique walks behind me. Leaving traces of unidentifiable footsteps. Is it my shadow? A reflection hidden comfortably in the dark yet loves to be caressed in the light; only to be seen. Ironic isn’t it?
